Monday, May 18, 2009

Fighting Christian Temptation

I'm not even sure how to start this post but to say that I fight this temptation everyday is a profound understatement. It's the temptation to have the "right" answer or seem to have it all together. If there is one thing that drives me crazy it's the Christian who has an answer for everything. They are never without a comment, they have the latest corner marketed on doing church, everyone wants their advice, and the list goes on. I think the real reason I have a problem with people like this is because I find myself trying to be that person. I mean why not, I've been doing ministry for 15 years and not just that but I've done it well and big leading a youth ministry of over 800 students. Why shouldn't I have all the answers? Yet His word, which I have stuck in my head and heart says, "God resists the proud but gives grace to the humble." I am finding that one thing rings true in my life, that experience can leverage much influence with the opportunity to give answers to other ministry leaders, business folks and the like, but grace and humility, while the tougher road to haul, bring meaning to life and ultimately make me a better follower. And when the rubber meets the road, that is really what I want and long to be...a better follower, not a better answer giver. What did Paul say after giving all of his accolades, being one who adhered to the law, knowing the scriptures like no one else, a scholar, and an over all popular guy? He counted it....rubbish.

All of it, rubbish, compared to knowing Christ. The more I am aware of Him and my great need, the more I realize my answers pale in comparison to just knowing Christ. I don't want to have all the answers, I just want to have Christ. I pray for more of Him and less of me. That will be all the answer others need.